YEAH. HELL WEEK. CRAMMING. STRESS. Those were the emotions I felt when I thought about the words "THESIS and DEFENSE". I want to cry and to shout. My nerves are killing me. I swear. I am close to dying. Want to know why? For the reason, I'm scared to fail. I want to graduate. I want to finish college on time.

Doing the thesis was very painful. Sleepless nights, forever online and no meals. No dates for valentine's day because we celebrated it with groupmates overnight at Jamie's Crib. We have a deadline to catch. 1st endorsement, 2nd endorsement and dooms day! HAHAHA. But happy to say, we made it to the 2nd endorsement, even though the highest grade will have a ceiling grade of 85%?? Not sure.

Judgment day came. I was full of emotions.(nervous, stomach ache, feeling cold) When it was time to setup the networking, it works! yey! We explained everything in our system. They have a lot of suggestions to add and edit in our system. The moment I heard them uttered the words, "You Passed." I felt a big relieved in my heart. Time to parteeh! Unfortunately, we need to revise our thesis. The party animal within me can wait. Studies have been a huge part of my life I will graduate no one can stop me. =)

END. STOP.

I dunno what to blog right now. Total black out. Hmmmm..I'm just looking forward to the last days of my college life. I want to have fun and bond with my college friends, in short create good memories for the following days. Especially with our schedules, we seldom see each other. If we have chance to parteeey! Go go go. Life is short so live like there's no tomorrow. I can say, I have met a lot of good people in my life that's worth keeping. I'm thankful for it. I want to make more lasting memories with them.


LOVE THEM.

"Nerds are for Dorks."

The first ever photo I uploaded in my very own TUMBLR.
I created my account yesterday. I will reblog and share my edited
pictures there but THIS blog will always be for my long and winding
thoughts or weird antics or happiness.

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I don't usually write my new year resolutions. I actually don't list any of it. *Kasi hindi naman nasusunod* That's the real reason. What I have in mind right now is a lot of plans for this year. I hope it will push through. For this TWENTY-O-TEN...

THE MESSAGE I SENT.

Heart to Heart. Good times.

New begins. New life. New happenings. New challenges. New problems. Everything is new. Like it. hahaha

We started our year with an anticipated mass with my family a while ago. It was great. I love the feeling of going to the church and be thankful for all the blessing I've received especially for last year.

When it's time for the homily...

Si Father uminit ang ulo. Kase ganito yan, almost all of the people was on the back. He requested the people to go to the front for the vacant seats but no one is moving. Buti na lang, me and my family was in the front. Ayan na, kaya sinabi ni Father, "Lagi naman ako nakikiusap at patuloy akong makikiusap sa inyo hanggang matapos ang taong ito... Hindi lahat gusto nyo ay masusunod. Hindi lahat ng gusto nyo ay dapat." It was not actually the exact words. But Father has a point.

They have to do almost everything just to make us believe that when they say "i love you" they mean it...Sabi pa nila sila ung nahihirapan pag nagkakaroon ng LQ kasi dapat cla pa ung gagawa ng 1st move at manunuyo. Mahirap daw e...ung sitwasyon nila pag nababasted kasi masakit daw un.

A girl's point of view:

So ur sayin...u love the girl and u mean it ey? That u'll do everything for us NOT to cry, that u'll stay with us even if everything becomes harder than it seems, and u'll prove us that ur downright honest with everything that u utter. u expect us to believe that crap???? mga chong di naman kasi kami ganun katanga eh...

sasabihin nyo samin na mahal nyo kami ni hindi nyo pa nga kami ganun kakilala? makita nyo lang
na "ui ang pretty naman nya!ligawan ko kaya?"

tapos ano?mahal nyo na kagad kami?

kaya ngafriends muna eh! para makilala nyo muna kami ng mabuti para pag nagkarelasyon na ndi nyo
pagsisihan na nagsayang kayo ng panahong manligaw. sasabihin nyo na ang strikto namin sa lahat ng bagay pero pag kayo naman magpapaka strikto may naririnig ba kayo samin?wala db?ocge kung meron ano? cge nga...wala tlg eh!kasi sa totoo lang mas marunong kami makaintindi kesa sanyo..pag cnbi naming "ikaw lang..." hindi tlg kami titingin sa iba.the moment na landiin kami "may bf na ko.."

magawa kasi gustong gusto nyo ung feeling na may lumalandi snyo. so pano ba namang ndi kami magiging strikto kung kayo mismo walang magawa pag anjan na...

sabihin na nating mahirap manligaw...ocge mahirap pala eh,bat nyo pa ginagawa???
pag ligaw di ibig sabhin nun magiging kayo na! kaya nga ligaw e...dalawa sagot nyan sa huli,

tpos sasabihin nyo masakit mabasted?expect the unexpected.

di porke napayagan ka ng manligaw e oo na kagad ung sagot namin kaya nyo lang
inaantay...kagaguhan un! shmpre papakita nyo lng ung "good side" db?tapos pag naging kayo na...wala na...lahat ng baho lumabas na. so sino sa tingin nyo nagssuffer sa huli?kami db?wag nyo sabihing kayo kasi kagaguhan ulit un!

minsan kasi pag alam na ng guy na mahal na mahal na sila,ayan na...they'll start taking the girl for granted. pag alam na nilang ang baba na tlg ng pride ng babae kayo naman magpapahabol ganun ba? tapos pag muka na kaming tanga
ipagmamayabang nyo pa sa mga kaibigan nyo db? tssssss....tama db?buti nga kayo malasing lang kinabukasan naka move on na e..palibhasa kasi walang nawala snyo.e panu kaya kaming mga girls??? kahit umiyak kami ng dagat wala naman
na kayong pakialam e.db?

so who's selfish now? girls pa rin ba?

My last blog,I was carried away by my emotions. Sorry. Scratched all those things I've said. I feel much better now because I ready for intership next week. I know right. God has it's own time. I became too impatient lately. Due to pressure.

Anyways, I have a new topic for today. My love for photography. I love taking pictures of random things, people and events in my life. I'm not just taking pictures, I'm taking a shot of what my life is. "Craziness&Fun". I am an ordinary girl but I want an extraordinary life. I'm starting to live my life according to what I want with my camera (of course!). Before, I hate to be seen in some pictures. Life change. I just suddenly started to like be in the pictures. Taking pictures with some angle. It amused me how beautiful world can be. The sky, mother nature, almost everything on it. I appreciated more the goodness of God, how He created the world. So vast and alive, with mysteries and astonishing figures on it. A simple device, changes my outlook in life. After the graduation, I want to take up some photography lessons. Buy my own DLSR. Someday, If I have a chance, start my own photography studio. It gives me reason to live, everytime I'm doing what I really enjoy.





END.

Hey! I'm back. After twenty days of busy-ness, I'm here to let it out. Feelings, thoughts and mindless opinions of mine.

NOW.
I wanna cry! Then, scream with all my might. So I could caught the attention of everyone. I'm sad and happy. Sad because I don't still have an assurance for my intership. I felt I am a major loser! Companies doesn't want me. *boo-hu-hu-huuu* I have four interviews then what did I get?? huh? Nothing. My self-esteem was crashed. Big time! Awhile ago, I'm crying. Yes! I know right? Me crying? for the love of gad, Gez! I can't help it. I'm also human. I'm ashamed, everytime I go to school with a formal attire and people keep asking, "where are you going?" For the nth time, I'll answer, "Interview". *Bullshit!* (baka sabihin nila, interview na naman, anak ng!) It feels unfair everytime I think of my other classmates. Unfair for the reason that our chairperson was responsible in finding their company. How about me? Why can't I feel that she is helping us? I know she is busy. I am irritated. hahaha I'm not fully enjoying this sembreak, if I still have some worries about the effin OJT. As the quote said, "Desperate time comes to desperate measure." It's true. I email-ed some companies, who can accept me for intership, I'm praying with all my heart so they will response in my emails. Please pray for me. People all over the world! Pray for me. Thank you. :) Our ojt will be starting next week, what will I do. Can anyone hire me?? Please. I'll kneel and beg in front of you. Just hire me as your trainee. Is that too desperate? Told yah. I'm in desperate times.

Anyways, I'm happy because its just in my nature to be happy and to be alive and to be kicking all the time. Even though, I have a little problems in the way. Thinking positive, that's me! Party everyday. Party eveyday. This week's gonna be a good week. Right?! Tell me I'm right. So I could shut up and have a peace of mind.

That's all. THE END! :)


Currently feeling: desperate and uneasy
Currently doing: uploading again the album people can't view
Currently on mind: "Do something with NOTHING"