YEAH. HELL WEEK. CRAMMING. STRESS. Those were the emotions I felt when I thought about the words "THESIS and DEFENSE". I want to cry and to shout. My nerves are killing me. I swear. I am close to dying. Want to know why? For the reason, I'm scared to fail. I want to graduate. I want to finish college on time.

Doing the thesis was very painful. Sleepless nights, forever online and no meals. No dates for valentine's day because we celebrated it with groupmates overnight at Jamie's Crib. We have a deadline to catch. 1st endorsement, 2nd endorsement and dooms day! HAHAHA. But happy to say, we made it to the 2nd endorsement, even though the highest grade will have a ceiling grade of 85%?? Not sure.

Judgment day came. I was full of emotions.(nervous, stomach ache, feeling cold) When it was time to setup the networking, it works! yey! We explained everything in our system. They have a lot of suggestions to add and edit in our system. The moment I heard them uttered the words, "You Passed." I felt a big relieved in my heart. Time to parteeh! Unfortunately, we need to revise our thesis. The party animal within me can wait. Studies have been a huge part of my life I will graduate no one can stop me. =)

END. STOP.

Play this before reading the short dialogue. :)

*Got this from a friend.* enjoy reading.

I dunno what to blog right now. Total black out. Hmmmm..I'm just looking forward to the last days of my college life. I want to have fun and bond with my college friends, in short create good memories for the following days. Especially with our schedules, we seldom see each other. If we have chance to parteeey! Go go go. Life is short so live like there's no tomorrow. I can say, I have met a lot of good people in my life that's worth keeping. I'm thankful for it. I want to make more lasting memories with them.


LOVE THEM.

I don't usually write my new year resolutions. I actually don't list any of it. *Kasi hindi naman nasusunod* That's the real reason. What I have in mind right now is a lot of plans for this year. I hope it will push through. For this TWENTY-O-TEN...

THE MESSAGE I SENT.

Heart to Heart. Good times.

It's been a roller coaster ride. I stumbled, I fell but I stood up till the end. Every year has been different to me. This year might be stressful and full of challenges but life won't be complete without it. I learned a lot from being friendly, more responsible, being matured in many ways and to party until dawn. Having fun this year was a success. I've been to Pureto Gallera, to bars, to the houses of friends and any where I want to be. As it was written in my planner for 2009, "LIVE RIGHT", I can say I have live my life right. I met people, talked to them and cherished the moment with them. Everyday is new day. I prayed for my love ones, prayed for my education, prayed for the good things I received and prayed for someone,who will be my forever(cheessy!). I experienced traffic, long walks, pollution and busy streets of Manila and Makati. I have sinned. I'm no perfect person. It indicates that I am also human. I lied, cheated, cursed and ignored some people's cry for help. I admit those things I did in my past and I'm sorry for it. I asked forgiveness. Moreover, I contained self-control and patience. This year is my senior year and my last year of college. I am proud that I studied hard and pursue the things I wanted to happen. I became an officer in an organization and automatically qualified me to be a student leader. Those events in this year will surely tell, who I am now, why I am like this and how I become like this. I am an independent person. I know how to enjoy and to be contented in what I have. However, there are times I became arrogant, stubborn and emotional in some situation. I can't refuse to share that in some season in this year I felt alone and lonely. My only refuge was God, is God and will always be God. He completes me. He is always in my heart, in my mind and in soul. He is my father, my life and my savior. I can say with Him beside me, nothing is impossible. He made life possible to live in. He made this year to be worth remembering from day 01 until day 365.

Almost every day or every night I play the song, "One Last Song" by A1(the boy-band back in the 90's, if you remember.) I feel a momentary bliss when I hear that song. It always touches my kilig bones. hahaha I confess I was a die-hard-fan of A1 back in my elementary days. I bought tapes, posters of them and also laminated their pictures and brought it often in my school. Yikkkess! haha

But now, I just love this song. I'm not sure if I can relate. All I know this song is something I can't explain why get kilig. =) I was in our office (OJT mode) when I suddenly heard a melody, a familiar one, I can not distinguish where it was coming from that time. The next day, I heard it again. It was the time I bear in my mind to find the song. "I must find that song."-I kept reminding myself. I downloaded it. Played it all over again until my ears bleed. I'm so addicted to it.

PLAY IT! to listen to the song.

"And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong..."

-fave line-

It means to wait.

A came across with this quote while reading "Our Daily Bread". I want to share this with you.

"What a chapter might be written of God's delays! It is the mystery of the art of educating human spirits to the finest temper of which they are capable. What searching of heart, what analyzing of motives, what testing of the Word of God, what upliftings of soul. All these are associated with those weary days of waiting, which are, nevertheless, big with spiritual destiny."

-F.B. Meyer

*If I'm becoming too impatient on the events occurring in my life,God has His own way to tell me to be patient and to wait. Everything will fall into place in God's time. =)


Currently doing: Flyers for the designing of program shirt contest!
Currently on the mode for: arty mode.
Currently feeling: Relieve and becoming patient again.