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In life, love

Photography

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In life, random

Loser me!

Hey! I'm back. After twenty days of busy-ness, I'm here to let it out. Feelings, thoughts and mindless opinions of mine.

NOW.
I wanna cry! Then, scream with all my might. So I could caught the attention of everyone. I'm sad and happy. Sad because I don't still have an assurance for my intership. I felt I am a major loser! Companies doesn't want me. *boo-hu-hu-huuu* I have four interviews then what did I get?? huh? Nothing. My self-esteem was crashed. Big time! Awhile ago, I'm crying. Yes! I know right? Me crying? for the love of gad, Gez! I can't help it. I'm also human. I'm ashamed, everytime I go to school with a formal attire and people keep asking, "where are you going?" For the nth time, I'll answer, "Interview". *Bullshit!* (baka sabihin nila, interview na naman, anak ng!) It feels unfair everytime I think of my other classmates. Unfair for the reason that our chairperson was responsible in finding their company. How about me? Why can't I feel that she is helping us? I know she is busy. I am irritated. hahaha I'm not fully enjoying this sembreak, if I still have some worries about the effin OJT. As the quote said, "Desperate time comes to desperate measure." It's true. I email-ed some companies, who can accept me for intership, I'm praying with all my heart so they will response in my emails. Please pray for me. People all over the world! Pray for me. Thank you. :) Our ojt will be starting next week, what will I do. Can anyone hire me?? Please. I'll kneel and beg in front of you. Just hire me as your trainee. Is that too desperate? Told yah. I'm in desperate times.

Anyways, I'm happy because its just in my nature to be happy and to be alive and to be kicking all the time. Even though, I have a little problems in the way. Thinking positive, that's me! Party everyday. Party eveyday. This week's gonna be a good week. Right?! Tell me I'm right. So I could shut up and have a peace of mind.

That's all. THE END! :)

Currently feeling: desperate and uneasy
Currently doing: uploading again the album people can't view
Currently on mind: "Do something with NOTHING"

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In change, pinoy

10-30-2008

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Alone Time with God

With or Without Ondoy, we have our retreat at Alfonso, Cavite. I felt really lucky because I did not experience to be stranded or walked in a dirty, eeky and muddy flood of Metro Manila. FYI, almost 200 students of St. Paul Manila were stranded and slept in the campus. I'm not one of them. I'm just one of the concerned students, who wants to know if they are doing good or whatever. Lucky in a sense that we arrived safe and early at St. Paul Renewal Center.

*emergency exit - me@ room 218*

I spend my 3days and 2night dedicated for the Lord. I'm very fortunate. Others maybe panicking or hungry by that time, I was praying for them with my classmates and schoolmates. On the other hand, I felt a little guilty because we have a lot of foods to eat. Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack and dinner that was our great sacrifice to eat and eat. Compare to the past retreat, this one is a life changing retreat. I learned many good thing about God.

Bro. Roland, the retreat master, a person full of energy in his body. A man who has inspires us to be different and to be a better person. (I hope) He made us laugh but his words are very striking it can hit and open ones eyes for the truth. Every words, every phrases and every sentences are important to dwell into the God's love.

The first night, he made us cry because he told us a sad story from a boy. I really controlled my tears not to fall but I can't. Before tears fall into my eyes, I was saying to myself, "Oh noo.. *sakit na ng lalamunan* hind ko na kaya, magkakaheart attack na yata ako." hahaha Suddenly,I can hear some people crying. Gez! that's hard. It made me felt more uneasy, I accidentally looked at my seatmate, who is crying already, that was the time i released my tears slowly and lost my focus from the story. With a mellow background music and a story like Bro. Roland told us I thought no one can help but to shed tears also. Afterwards, we had a sharing with my groupmates, they were teary eyes while telling the story mostly about parents, being alone and financial problems. Mine was different, second life and rebellious thoughts. It was fun. I shared a part of me to them.

*taken @ the prayer room*

The second day and night, another brother arrived it was Bro. Odey, who facilitated some activities. He made us draw a pictures in our traced hands and every finger represents something. Index finger- a word or phrase that can describe myself. Middle finger- draw greatest growth experience. Ring finger - Bad or negative attitude. Pinky finger - God's greatest gift not a person. Palm - What keeps you going in life? Wrist - name or nickname. Of course, sharing again with another set of group mates, this time with accounting or fma students. We met new friends, I again shared a part of me thru that sharing. I felt loved from God from the stories of people around me. The last session for the night was unforgettable experience. A time alone for God. It was like close encounter with God. I felt his presence. A feeling I wish lasted for long. I cried. Hagulgol to max. I tried to be quiet but there were times I can not. It ended with more hugs from my friends, my classmates and my group mates. Affection, I need it once in a while. All the burden was released. I like it.

*Last day, barkada picture*

The last day, confession and sang songs of praises. Deep inside, I don't want to end my retreat. I want to stay there. Peace of mind, tranquility are words can describe my stay in that retreat. Now, it's back to reality. Living a life with worldly temptation again but I will avoid it. God is in my heart.

Lesson in Life: "We can't have every thing we desire, but we have everything we need."

END.

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Confusion

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In historical, random

Thesis

One of the stressful days of College life is thesis. You're out of place if you haven't experienced doing a thesis whether a baby thesis or an actual thesis that might be the cause of not attending in your graduation. I am happy to say that me and my groupmates have been finished doing it a while ago and also submitted it to our professor. I thank God for helping us in our desperate needs. The only challenge we are going to encounter is the defense. I know, the stress is still on. It will be next week. I should start studying our thesis. We need collaboration and the sense of being Ms. Know-it-all, even though we're not. hahaha. White lies is indeed needed. Practice makes perfect A ++. Right! Go. go.

*looking at my phone very sleeping. doing the cost and benefit analysis*

(@ninay's crib)

I felt really pressured in doing the thesis. Time pressured. The deadlines and the requirements are major cause of my sleepless nights, my 24/7 online duty, my stuttering moments, my memory gaps and my constipation(haha! secret lang natin). Too much makes my mind to clurred and narrow. Despite of thesis, we still have other systems to finish with different programming lauguage like C#, .ASP and visual basic. I have the reason to be BANGAG. For example, sleep in the class, mumble words differently that no one understand but me, get easily tired without doing too much work and going a lot of crazy things. I dunno how or why I can keep up with this shits. I can simply say, I trust God and thank Him with every single grace He has given to me. Praise the LORD! wooh. :)

*the tools we used for the thesis. me busy doing nothing*

(@ninay's room)

After September, it will be petiks time. BUM world will surely welcome me again. Party starts and drinking seesions will be part of it. I hope it will be fun sembreak because it will be my last sembreak. huhuhu Besides, I only have 2 weeks of vacation. I think. Then, implementaion time! thesis again with codes and codes. Together with our OJT, we will continue doing the f*cking thesis. I'm getting fat, for the reason that all I can do is eat, sit, type, stand and move the mouse. Very tiring and productive? haha Anyways, I'm proud to let others know I can sleep earlier!!! FUN.

END.

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In change, life

Facebook

Yes! all of us I think is a user of this social networking site called FACEBOOK, even our relatives and professors are signing up. I'm totally hooked with this site. I'm close to be called "Admin". I'm always using that site for updating myself to my friends, for commenting, for playing the applications they have or for liking the stuff the people are posting in their walls. My life evolves in this site. Morning until dawn count on me, I'll be there. Addict! yeah. That's the right word. If you heard the words, facebook addict, I'm guilty as charge plus a reward to those people will caught me harvesting my crops in Farmville. hahaha. Level 20 as of now, within two or more weeks of playing, I just can't stop plowing, seeding and harvesting my farm. I never thought I will be like this towards farmville. Before, I just ignored those request they kept sending me but at the end I gave in. Because one of my friends, requesting to send a gift to him. I'm kind-hearted that time, so I send him one tree. A night, I won't forget, the reason I became addicted to Farmville big time. He keeps on telling me, send me gifts. I said, sure why not, cause I'm bored that time. I gave it try and ta-da! I can't stop playing. OMG! Sleepness nights and sneaking to Net Lab just to harvest. I think my friends are starting to get hooked also, due to my persistent actions.

Last early Sunday, I opened my facebook and did the usual things. Unfortunately, when I came back home, I can't log-in. It lasted for almost 4 days without Facebook in our house. I'm close to dying and depression. hahaha. I did everything. I restore, clean-up, delete the temporary, history and cookies of my browsers and even reinstall my operating system for the sake of Facebook. Nothing happened until this day, I tried again and it worked. Yey! back to business in facebook. More plowing, seeding and harvesting to go. Level UP! wooh.

Currently needs: Long hours of Sleep.
Currently feeling: Tired and Weary.
Currently excited for: Y4IT - UP diliman tomorrow.

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Kiyeme

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Hay Buhay

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In life, love

Love Story

Marriage- one of Religious Education Subject in our School. A requirement in this subject, is to able to submit a love story written by ourselves. It could be anyone or someone but my story is very far from my experience. It's only a fiction. Maybe I could be writting my future love story. Who knows, right?

Due to stress, I loss track of dates, so the time that we should submit the requirement to our professor. I was shocked to know that day was the deadline of the love story.* Damdam* I sacrifice my days and my nights on writing that Effin story. :)) *tapos i'll just forget to print and have a backup copy in my usb hub* AiCaramba! My professor by the way kept reminding us that she won't accept late papers. huhuhu I used my charm and my prof did understand. Thank God. :) I also read the stories of my friends and all I can say is "thumbs up"! I enjoyed reading them in the jeepneys, in my room or anywhere I felt boredom.

The following words, sentences, and paragraphs are from the excerpt of a love story written by moi, entitled "A Prayer"...

Reena doesn’t know about Kenneth, that he is secretly in love with her from the first day he notice her. He can’t get enough of her especially, when their paths met again in the chapel. He is too shy that’s why he did not smile back then. He felt also sadness, when he saw Reena crying. He took courage to give the handkerchief to her. He wants to comfort her that time. If only he can he will. Moreover, they also share both the same prayer for finding the right person. Despite of letting God find the girl for him, he still hopes that it would be Reena. His love for her is very deep and everlasting. Every day with her for him is paradise, a place of true happiness. The only problem is how he will tell her.

One night, Kenneth called Reena told her to go outside of their house. She changed clothes and went out. Kenneth asks for a walk near the beach. While walking, as their normal selves, they have been usually the goofy ones. When they reach the place, they saw a bonfire. They sit next to it and saw the sky twinkle because of the stars shimmering endlessly. They start star gazing. It was cold so Kenneth took off his jacket and put it to Reena. They spotted a falling star. They both close their eyes and wish. Kenneth wish, “I wish this night will be special.” Out of nowhere, Kenneth told to her, “Let’s dance?!” “You’re really out of our mind. There’s no music”, Reena said. He just opens his cellphone and plays some songs. So they dance to the up beat tune. Dancing like there’s no tomorrow. Later on, the song was changed with a slow melody. Kenneth takes her hand and she gets closer to Kenneth. The moonlight is like a limelight in a dance floor giving them luminosity to dance. Kenneth looks at Reena’s eyes. Then, he brushes her hair out of her face slowly and locks it in her ears. He leans closer and whispers something to Reena, “You think it would be crazy, I know. From moment you first smiled at me you had my full attention; suddenly the world seems such a perfect place. When you laughed you had my urge to laugh with you, suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste. When you cried you had my urge to hold you once again. You are the perfect girl for me.” Then, he looks at her eyes again and said sincerely with all his heart, “I Love You!” Tears fell into Reena’s eyes again but this time it is the opposite reason. She felt butterflies dancing in her stomach, blood rush to her veins and an indescribable feeling. Reena open her lips for a reply, “Awhile ago, I wish for a person, who I will love and will love me back. Then, you said you loved me. I guess you’re the prize; you’re God’s gift to me. I love you too!” Kenneth lightly pushes up her chin, look into her deep brown eyes, tell her again he loves her, and kisses her gently.

The night ended and they start a new chapter in their lives. Love and life can be both a roller coaster ride but you just to have trust God like Reena and Kenneth did. Three years has passed by, Kenneth proposed to Reena. After one year, they got married and similar to Auntie Julie, they also include on the misallete the prayer to share it with others, to find their true love with a blessing from the Lord.

Currently doing: Expressing her thoughts.
Currently in the mood for: Editing Pictures.
Currently listening to: the droplets of water.

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In adventure, change

Tribute for Cory

I know. It's late. I was busy. Anyways, Last August 1, 2009, we loss our former President Cory Aquino because of cancer. A very sad moment for the Republic of the Philippines and especially for the Aquino Family. Condolence to them.

*left - me @ school, middle - while waiting,
right - with my sister wearing a yellow shirt(the color for cory)*

Watching the televise burial of Cory was very heart melting. People all over the Philippines were mourning. I was touch by the words that the people, who knew Cory personally. She was kind, helpful and generous person. I hope when I die people will say good things about me like Cory, people will share memories that will last in their hearts. I was inspired by her good works and good deeds. She was a prayerful and God-fearing person. I instantly admire her personality. I know it's too late but she will always be in our history. Our Mother of Democracy and the wife of former Sen. Ninoy Aquino will always be remembered.

August 5, 2009. When it's time to deliver the eulogy by Kris Aquino, I shed tears, I felt the loneliness inside of her. One of the best eulogies that I heard.

“I’m sorry mom, I lied to you. Nagsinungaling ako when I told you na we would be okay. I did this because we wanted you to be free from all your pain at para hindi ka na mag-alala tungkol sa amin. Pero, mom, it would take a lifetime for us to be okay because we will forever miss you,”
-Kris Aquino

Many people was affected, I can say. Then, they were off to Manila Memorial. We are near so me, my sister and my mom decided to come. We wanted to be part of the historical event. We waited for almost 7 hours. Just standing and eating. I saw a lot of people holding DSLR with huge lenses. Gez. I envy them for a while. I can't stop starring in their cameras. Someday I'll own one. That day, made me realized how I really like photography and how I badly want to have my very own DSLR. I also want to serve our nation. *wow* In my little way, I will. A day of excitement and inspiration. A day I won't forget. :)

Currently watching: Millionaire matcher.
Currently doing: swiping her nose because of her colds.
Currently feeling: BAD. headache.

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In adventure, life

Midterm Exams

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In adventure, jpcs

So Little Time

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In fall, life

Hopeless

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In rainy day, scribbles

Heavy Rain

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In dream, happiness

Dream Guy's Profile

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In happiness, random

Excitement

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In love, random

Suitors

Well, I just read this a year ago pa 2008 in my friend's blog. Cool db? I've saved it pa. When I was browsing my files. I saw this again. I just want to share this. Sobrang nakarelate ako mga bords. I think tonight is the right time. For I don't have any powers to write my own blog. Besides, nahihiya ako irepost 'to sa multiply ko. Baka sabihin kuha ako ng kuha sa blog nya. :)) tska hnd nya lam 'tong site na 'to. kaya DIZIZIT!!! READ IT.

my suitors actually, pero malay mo applicable din sa ibang girls :p

WARNING:
after reading this you might think na, ang bossy ko naman, feeling reyna. syempre sa umpisa lang yan, pero once you'v won me, gosh. no comment nako.

1. dont make me come to you, sacrifice sweat, time and money, come to me gehddemmet! :)) ito ay EXTRA batingtingtingting points!

2. dont ask me foolish questions, go straight to the point! (like a needle point! -ty) haha

3. wag maging kabute! magtetext, hindi, magtetext, hindi. taena naman. be consistent.

4. if you're up to dirty games or talk, f*ck off, i'm not interested, unless.. you made me :)) joke.

5. be patient. coz actually im testing your patience dear. as in tinotodo ko kamalditahan ko sa mga suitors. i can make you give up, tried and tested. :))
tinan mo lahat ng sumubok, lahat may gf na after few weeks lang or months :)) are you one of them ? and they usually settle for less PEACE MEHN. PEACE!

6. dont act like my bf already. haha duh? i dont want another father-like someone braggin me tellin me what to and not to do.

7. accept me for who i am. coz i admit it, i've done lotsa of bad stuff and you have to deal about it and take into the consideration that im not legal when it comes to relationship, so practice maging secret lover :))

8. stop talking shit, ACT demmet. are you a nagging biatch to do all the talk and not doin anything? come on. (part dito yung keeping promises, IMPORTANT yun, as much as possible dont dissappoint me)

9. as i mentioned, materialistic at times, coz i want to know that i'm always remembered. kahit small things lang.. it makes a difference, besides special days like bday ito example, it's midnight, and we're texting tas ang punyetang unli ay naitigil na pala, instead of pressuring me to buy a load, naman! gusto mo ko marape? hayup ka ba? tulog na maid wala na ko mauutusan, magsend ka lang ng load na good for that night to text you, ayos na. o dba. matter of 25php!

10. dont flaunt if wala ka namang ipagmamalaki, dont use other person's stuffs like car to impress me, coz it's not the car f*cker it's YOU! bobo.

11.wag baduy. so wag madrama, mukha ba kong si charo sa mmk.. duh. at wag humirit ng "damn! ang swerte naman nya!" nayahahahaha anu ba. pinatatawa mo ko.

12. never make me wait.

13. when i ask you a question, answer me right away, coz in a glimpse my decision can change.

14. never lie, i'd rather know the truth and be hurt than to be happy and believe in lies. mukha akong tanga nun, lalo na kun may gf ka! gagu ka. giyerahin kita makita mo.

15. dont be so proud of yourself! be humble, galit ako sa mga hambog.

16. wag warfreak. babayagan kita.

17. kung ndadamihan ka sa mga pinagsasabi ko dito, abay suko ka na kagad, kitams?? sibat na. wag mareklamo.

18. syempre may mga nakakturn off din naman akong side, so kung ganun man, if you want to say it to me, say it nicely! wag exagge. at wag imbento ng storya.

19. stop testing me, anu ka ba di pa nga tau, ako lang may karaptan magtest drive este testing sau kasi kaw ang manliligaw. hahahaha

20.

the last number, i'll leave it blank. kasi madami pa. hahahha
coz you know, its hard to sum everything up in this single blog in one sitting.. coz in life there's really no certain rules you have to follow to be successful, but guides are given, so thus this.

sinulat ko toh to express my thoughts hindi para magpapansin!!
itong mga toh based on experience. dahil nakakabwiset minsan ang suitors. ;))

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In random, unfortunate

Another Unfortunate Events

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In fall, rainy day

Unlucky Day

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In random,

Comments

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In adventure, jpcs

In Line

Yes, I know. LINE. The main topic is line. Did you ever imagined waiting for a line that never moves for quite a while? It takes forever to go on? It was almost seven hours of waiting? DAMN! My friends have done that a little while ago. I think after our first class they hurriedly went down to fall in line. So I checked them and told them to save some space for us. For we have a meeting with our moderator in JPCS(Junior Philippine Computer Society). Two hours went by, we checked them and still they were in the same position. Kumain muna kami ng lunch plus chit chatting. Another hour went by, we checked them again. Gumalaw naman yun pila. Maybe a few inches. We stayed for a while. But we have to continue our meeting in SAO.

Serious meeting ang naganap. Planning of general assembly for CS/IT and other activities of JPCS. Google earth -Paulinian Edition. Website for CBM (College of Business and Management). Later on, we finished our discussion. We ended up browsing the multiply page of HOT MESS or bupie and likodnglente(hnd ko sure). Cool pictures! Nagkagulo pa nun low batt ang laptop ni Gian. Super hirap i-please. Nanakot pa sila sa mga password ekek. *long story* Another two and a half hours passed by, still they were in the line. My goodness. The line in the registral was ever so bagal. Sumingit pa kaming tatlo. I can't looked at the eyes of the people. haha *guilty conscience* We awaited for an hour or two, before the lady guard let us in. At least, nakapasok na. Payment na lang for tomorrow.

On our way home, a friend told me, she will get her picture with the metrostation in Ayala. Sumama ako. haha Gusto ko lang. May nangyari. Haba ng pila sa pabili ng card. Shit! Annoying but really funny. Eto pa MRT, baba na kami then there was this girl blocking our exit. BOOM! stamped. Super hirap lumabas. Mukang tanga un babae. Kakainis! In my almost four years in LRT, this situation never happened to me. SA MRT LANG. Dumating pa sa point na hinila na kami ng Guard palabas ng MRT because of the people who can't wait. Gez! Badtrip, when I saw a guy laughing at us. Pero natawa talaga ako nun I saw Jona coming out the MRT. Feeling ko I'll be left behind. haha Hinila din sya ng Guard. May isa pang humirit while pulling Jona, "Kailangan talaga may savior??". WTF?! natawa ako. *LOL* We went to picture city. Then, we went on our seperate ways. Adventure! :))

Chao. Bye bye! :)
*END*

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